It Didn't Happen for Me

It didn't happen for me
Not this morning
That inevidable success
That is given
To those who deserve it
Enough
The award
For the loudest struggle
From some all knowing
All withholding power
It didn't happen for me
I didn't wake up
From the dilusions
To the reality of
My dilusions
I was not given
The power we have
Been searching for
All of us
With faith in a fickle
Lottery
It didn't happen for me
And I hoped for it
It didn't happen for me
Why