Casual

Could you be my everything?
Everything is everything.
Samson met Delilah
when it was still in the month of Spring.
All I want is happiness.
Is there a roll for me to play?
After relinquishing my manliness,
can I still afford my price to pay?
For love and its excess. Monogamy and all its stress?
It's okay these hips move side to side,
the hands still have the power to caress

What am I Asking For?

Nothing last
forever. What is
your idea
of happiness? I don't understand
how you don't see
that powerful hand grabbing
as it ticks towards
this bed. It is temporary,
this flesh. Yet, my memory holds
steadfast. My anxiety is
expecting your absence.
I am the cause,
         fearful of the effect.

You are my longest friend
That echo that followed me at recess
What a patient companion I have
You disappear as I reassess
As a child they called me dramatic
But a child's mind understands success
I can't find success
So I have you, or you have me...I guess

Queer

I have a proclivity to the numbness
Where my dreams are my realities
Am I only me in my subconscious
Can you only see me in my deficiencies
I'm a queen, I'm flawless
I scream
People value your idiosyncrasies
As it fits into their realities
But, if you can't see me in my rawness
Past the disease in actualities
You haven't seen me
No, you haven't seen me

Traveling with a Loved One

Techno beats ricochet off these hardwoods
in these hundred year old walls they bounce
off of you and then back to me. I'm back to you
and then back to me. I have a proclivity to the numbness
as it surrounds you with the smoke. I can feel it's energy
passing to you and back to me and to you and back to me.
My thoughts run existentially, yet through a tunnel. I leave
my focus on a loop. Focusing on you and then back to me.
I am back to you and then back to me. I have never felt sobriety
as fervently as when we are in the realm of its enemy.
Surely this is meditation, medication. You pass to me
and then it is back to you. And I'm back to you
and you're back to me.

When You Sleep

You smile when you sleep
Push the world from you and me
When I leave you in the morning
My love grazes on your cheek
Yeah, you smile in your sleep
Surrounded by your honest
I release your hand from mine
But I leave you with my promise
Why do you smile when you sleep?
I have tried to understand
The world sets out to burn
And you're there holding out a hand
I've seen you smile in your sleep
And I've spoken of a promise
That you may continue on this journey
A gilded world, one that's flawless
You smile when you sleep

Gretchen

Love is when you listen
And not only to reply
Love is when we speak our truth
And stray from seeking to gratify
Love is stark disagreement
But with the goal to find unity
Love is certain individuality
And that opens an opportunity
Because love has a goal
and it's to aid in self discovery
Love reveals no enemy
And lends to self recovery